I often pray a prayer that starts like this, “God, open a door that only YOU can open!” How I love the God Who opens doors ... doors of opportunity ... doors of relationship ... doors of ministry ... doors of destiny. But, I must tell you, I have been pondering lately my extreme gratitude that God has loved me enough to close doors as well. As I look back at my life from a vantage point of over 5 decades ... I am just as grateful for the doors that God has strategically kept closed as for the ones that He has deliberately opened.
I am grateful for the many times (shamefully too many!) that God closed a door on a relationship during my dating years. How grateful I am that God chose Craig for me and didn’t allow me to choose based on teen-age hormones or young adult selfishness.
I am grateful that God gently held doors of destiny closed tightly for me until the right season in life. I am grateful that during my years of mothering that the doors to publishing contracts remained closed so that I could focus on the 5 most important things in my life. Little hearts ... fingerprints on every window ... bedtime stories ... PBJ sandwiches and little arms around my neck.
I am grateful that I don’t always get to live where I want to live but where God needs me to live.
I am grateful that God’s ways truly are higher than my ways ... and He knows what doors to miraculously open ... and what doors to patiently keep closed.
I do believe that there are times that I must persevere in prayer for the best doors to be opened for me and for those that I love. Some doors remained unopened simply because I don’t stay on my knees long enough ... or often enough. There are some doors that have remained regretfully closed just because of my lack of persistence in prayer.
And for those closed doors, I repent and pray again. I ask God to give me the resolve of Daniel ... of Joseph ... and of Hannah.
I have learned that it is only in the prayer closet of my heart that I discover which doors were never meant to be opened ... and which doors I must prayer harder and longer about.
It is in the prayer closet of my heart that I experience the power of God Who always opens the best doors for me.
It is in the prayer closet of my heart that I relinquish the door knob of all of my future doors ... and safely place my hand in His.